So I saw the Hospital Staff yesterday, and I have got to the point of my gut "living on borrowed time", so they want to take out 6" of my small intestine including my appendix.
The one comforting thing is the Surgeon who is doing it is the best in the Country with only a 2% failure rate.
However I just can't get my head around it for 2 reasons:
1) The fact my gut will be fused together and weakened. However it is like that now, so I still get the heeby-jeebies just thinking about it.
2) My Eugenic-riddled mind, causing me to be a real suicidal twat. Not that I often think about it, but when I go to the Hospital I think about what a burden I am and that we should live how Nature intended. Maybe it has roots in my Fascist period of 13 to 17 years old where I was in denial.
So it's scheduled sometime for the Summer. I'm currently on a course of steroids and I need to get my head around it all. If I wake up with a colostomy bag at the age of 22, then I will be a real wreck. 4 days in hospital and the thought my gut could come apart at any moment.
Also no smoking or drinking for life.
Time to get some other drugs, then. Damn you NHS.