Torturing Animals gives me a boner.
DirtySanchez
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I'm being completely serious. I'm not trolling or looking for attention or anything but I need to ask about this because I assume this isn't normal. I tortured a frog last night and got a hard on. Also I fantasize about rape and shit like that all the time. I've killed various animals some big some small and it turns me on. My question is should I be concerned about this? I ask here because bringing this up IRL would seem very strange. Any advice or answers are greatly appreciated. BTW this has been happening since I was 13.
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I'm not a homo:mad:
Thanks for the answer. So what exactly causes this and is it something to worry about or should I just roll with it? I mean I have good self control normally but I don't want to end up as that guy on the news for having dead strippers in my basement you know?
It's good that you feel in control. But just be wary that it is possible to snap at any time. As I can't tell what the exact cause is, the best thing I can think of right now is to just reaffirm yourself: "I am in control."
Bullied yes relentlessly. I wasn't ever abused by my parents or anything like that. I don't think anything from my youth would really cause this though. Plus if you have ASPD isn't it unlikely to even be aware something may be wrong?
You might just be taking any pent up emotions from back when you were bullied and unleashing them now that you can. And I guess using the disorder wasn't the best term. As with everything, there's a range of severity. Saying that you exhibit antisocial tendencies would be more appropriate. Currently, there is no reliable treatment for being antisocial. Because you can control yourself, keep at it and never let go.
Thanks for the insight. There were some other things too in my child hood. It was far from a perfect one and lets just say I was exposed to death at an early age but my childhood wasn't at all horrible so I dont know that it would have much of an effect. I also have an extensive history of petty crime and have been forceably commited twice. What scared me most was a year ago and I had a girl over at my house. Well she was on the computer and I remember having the most overwhelming urge to rape and strangle her. It was bizzare. The only reason I admit to these things is because its the internet and unlike some I dont care or get butthurt by what people say. I would put this in headshrinkers but it has a very sexual aspect to it.
This is interesting but I've never heard of beliefs causing sexually sadistic side effects
Emotions are quite powerful. Powerful enough to cause irrational behaviour. Take the Heaven's Gate cult as an extreme example. They believed in something so much that they committed suicide for it.
If it keeps getting worse, go see a fucking shrink. Talk it out with a professional and see what they have to say about it, but don't let them just give you drugs and say "here take this it will make things better" because in the long run those drugs will stop working and you'll have years and years of pent up frustration ready to burst.
This. See a clinical psychologist, not a psychiatrist.
Why the fuck don't you ask God to help you?
I have and nothing happened although God is the only thing that keeps me from acting out these feelings. Lately though I've began to have feelings of doubt even in regards to religion. Also Ive talked to psychologists. A few years back I tried to stab my step dad the cops got called and instead of Jail I was sent to a psych hospital but I lied my ass off to the psychs and was deemed to not be a threat. I'm a very good liar. These sexual feelings I get from torture are not something I'm willing to discuss IRL for obvious reasons. Thanks for all the rely's guys.
lol trust me I was made for this site:o Ive considered the murder/suicide option but I'm to afraid I'd fuck it up and end up as one of those fuckheads who only manages to kill 1 or 2 people.:facepalm: That and my fear of hell.
I assure you, the world is fucked up enough to where you'll be able to act out whatever sexual fantasy you have in a "legal" fashion.
This is the fucking truth. I can't wait to start college in January just so I can get laid. It's been too god damn long.
That would be me, so when I do have sex it's also like having lesbian sex. Ultimate heterohomosexual hot lesbian action pr0nz ftw!
After getting laid for the first time fapping was never the same again. I had steady pussy for a long time but for the past year I've had nothing
I think I'm in love
Was out of context, fix'd
I have come to realize that you are a very strange person Mayberry:o
You're slow
I wish to know this too. I've used ambien to get laid before. If you can get it you will increase your chances.
Like date rape? I don't think I'm capable of traveling down that road..
Yeah but date rape is such a negative term.
This is what I believe is the root of your problems and it is a sick way in which religion thrives, off fear, mainly from childhood. Putting the fear of "god" into people.
It's nothing more than psychological child abuse for pastors and teachers to encourage belief of an eternal hell of unlimited punishment for "sins".
It's all well and good people saying they're not mainstream religious leaders and simply extremists, however that is not the case and it is infact a mainstream view, especially in America. People like pastor Keenan Roberts, pastor Ted and Fred Phelps are in fact mainstream.
Pastor Ted speaks of "hell houses".
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hell_house
Children are sent to these places to be scared shitless about the idea of hell and what may happen to them in "hell" if they step out of line.
To quote Pastor Roberts:
Most christians deem it rational and acceptable to intimidate children though.
Every single former religious person I've spoke to, every single one you find on youtube will say that they were scared of the idea of hell whilst they were religious. Hell, the fear of hell still remains in otherwise rational thinking people who are not religious anymore.
http://www.daylightatheism.org/2008/10/extinguishing-the-fear-of-hell.html
I'd recommend you to read that. Religion can psychologically fuck up and scar many people. These urges you have may be suppressed feelings that have just been bottled up out of fear.
As for rape urges, they're natural. I'd recommend you to read the book A Natural History of Rape by Randy Thornhill and Craig T. Palmer; a seriously underrated book and idea.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Natural_History_of_Rape
Why do you think a lot of negroes are rapists of white women? It's primarily an evolutionary strategy.